There are so much happening in my life right now, and sometimes I dont know how to start my sentence.
To be honest, most of the days I'll be in my bed sulking. I wish I could share what happened but I need to protect my kids from harm, that's why I have kept my mouth shut. But I just want you to know that I'm going through a very tough time in my life.
I'm just so ever dearest happy to be doing what I love most right now - makeup. It somehow helps me stay calm and collected whenever I feel breaking down. I filmed makeup tutorials now -- because there are so much burden in my heart that I need to talk, I need to say something even it is not related to what I'm feeling inside. Makeup makes me happy right now. Shallow, but there's really nothing to complain right now. What matter is .. I am trying my best to be whole again.
So please pardon the next few days .. or weeks of being silent. One day I'll be able to say it, but not right now. Oh God how I wish the pain would stop already.